ETA: Since writing this, I put my headphones on and turned my iPod to Michael Ball. Problems are still there but he’s making me much calmer about them. 
Crisis averted…for the moment.
Oh my God, I haven’t had a worse case of the funk since the beginning of May. I find that I can’t even think straight right now. This has been going on for a little over a week. And while I might be doing a good job of hiding it when I’m with people, inside I think I might be falling to pieces. I’m having major anxiety issues. It started isolated to job worries but has now spread so violently that I’m having physical panic attacks accompanied by bouts of claustrophobia, fatigue and a basic unwillingness to snap myself out of it. Seriously, I’m going mental.
To rant on about it on here will just come off as whining so I’ll refrain from doing that. It would just be nice to feel a little better in my head. It’d be nice to have more motivation and not go home and sit on my couch all night (as I have done basically every night this week) and ignore the world. And it would be really nice to stop second-guessing myself over every little second of my day. And since it is beautiful outside right now, I can’t even blame my current mental issues on the weather. In fact, it’s just making me feel worse.
I don’t know what it is but I’m really hoping it goes away soon because it’s making feel very weak and that isn’t something I usually enjoy being.
Panic attacks often start when you’re stressed about something. Also, not sleeping well makes you more susceptible. I wonder if it would help even just to go out and take a little walk.
Definitely stressed at work. Not so much how busy it is but the constant threat of being laid off, plus our big wigs were in town plus some coworkers left today. Just not a good atmosphere right now.
Oddly enough, I’ve been sleeping more than usual. I’m weird like that. When I get really down, I sleep a lot and that in turn just makes me lethargic and unmotivated.
Though it wasn’t much, I did walk back from the grocery after work and the sun did feel nice. If the weather stays good for the weekend (which it is supposed to), I’m going to try and get out into it a bit.
Thanks for the tips! I promise I won’t be all blah when I see you tomorrow.
I’m sorry things are so up in the air for you right now, and hope they get better soon. I second Laura on the going outside thing, especially if it is nice. Can you go out on your lunch breaks at work? That helps me a lot, even if I just take a walk around the block and chill out with my iPod.
The staying-inside-ignoring-the-world cycle is hard to break once it starts. Good luck with it this weekend. You can do it! It’s finally nice in Boston! Go enjoy it!
Thanks for the encouragement. Being the weekend, I already feel better. It’s just a semi-toxic environment at work right now.
Nicki, you can be blah if you want to, I may be blah over apartments.
I actually spent a couple hours thinking, maybe I should just find another roommate situation. Then I decided I’d rather be broke!
Oh, and I agree w/Sarah about lunchtime walks. I couldn’t survive without them. Even if it’s just walking several blocks to get food.